I'm happy you have another daughter to love and feel love from. My kids are 13 and almost 15 and I just can't imagine. I lost my Bro at age 17 and since becoming a parent I think about my Mom and Dad and their process or lack of a grieving process. I talked to Mom about it last night. She's so hardened now and barely cries. I think it's something that just never goes away. It's like a giant fucken hole that doesn't ever heal completely. The only thing that helps is to keep loving. Sending positive energy!